Growing up for me was pretty hard, back in high school I was really depressed, I had absolutely no hope for the future, I wanted to kill myself almost everyday, I was into marijuana, and every now and then alcohol too. I had a little amount of friends, low self-esteem and no confidence, for every day in my life I was in despair, longing for something more, but never thinking that something more could exist. I have tried slitting my wrists several times, swallowing an overdose of pills, which led me to hospital and I had the doctor tell me if they didn't do something soon I would have died within two days, I was always just trying to find a way out of the dead dreariness of reality.