My life was no kind of life, I was always depressed and down on myself, I really could not see anything ahead of me, I had to take anti-depressant pills, which hardly worked. I had to see psychiatrists all the time because that is how bad my depression was; my family had to have group sessions with psychiatrists because we had so many family problems, with me being the centre of attention. This was my life, depression, drugs, sadness, despair, and hopelessness. I was so miserable, was bad at school, had no hope, I just wanted salvation from all of this, and little did I know that I was destined to find it. I somewhat believed in God, but I did not know Him, it was just an affirmation that He might be real.